Am I being too vulnerable or what? Lately I'm too prone to
flue and sore throat. After trying to fight the germs so that I could get
focus on MYE,the germs came and attack again. And goodness,
it's reaching the peak!
I was sent home this morning. Okay, I was geeting dizzy,apart from
the sore throat I went on Sat night after karaoke-ing and bowling ysterday night.
But I lied to mdm tan when my temp was 37.7.
When asked if I wasn't okay,I denied,for the one thing I was absolutely sure,
I WANT MY RESULTS BACK.
But Nadhirah tried to convince CM. haha.
Throughout the first few hours, I was getting weaker and felt like something
was pulling my eyelids so thet I could fell asleep.
During physics,half-paying attention, I decided to return home.
Probably that was the best choice I could decide upon,so as not to be
selfish and spread the gers to other classmate,particularly Nadhirah.


Guess taking prevention was better,esp in the midst of A H1N1.
Have yet to see the doctor,and I'm still unsure of whether
I'm allowed to go to school tmr.
Urgh,thanks to the little ones who are currently not feeling well.


Allright,am heading to Hui Shi's advice to sleep more.
Thanks,VP!

"begitu hidup ini
tiada yang abadi"

Life really comes and go,
flying with the flow of ticking seconds.
It just seems so vivid that everything happened yesterday,
and clearly it was wrong.
Mid-year has just end,had left the hectic life used to have ;
stepping down from band,and most,to be steepping down from
council where I used to spend my time to hide from true feelings,
before I knew everything would end this fast.

I never wished today to happen.
But have to say, thanks to H for everything
and the song presented.
Thanks for the encouragements.
And another thanks to a junior whom I don't know the name,
for making my morning look so bright on the last day of paper
when things got screwed up night before,and to everyone
who were directly involved with me last thurs.
I had a good time laughing out with the Exco.

There's no way to move on.
not now,nor tomorrow.
the weather has been hot and sunny,
but never were it affected by the ray.
am going through the pain with
whatever strengths left.
never thought it could be this weak
never thought it could be this severe
never thought it could be this tragic
and most,never thought it could be fatal

how it felt,when the penetarting eyes
were never clear in your sight
and you took your departure without leaving a hope
one day you'll return
never seem to be true
only the scar marked your leave
wounded,not to be ammended.

in my sleep
saw the shadow of you
smell the scent of you
felt the texture of you
heard the tender of you

the door shouldn't open
the key shouldn't take its arrival
the gold shouldn't deserve to be treasured
if it seems worthless from the starting

take your leave
leave me in menance
coz if leaving was the right thing to do
I'll hurt myself to keep from hurting you
to always keep you safe









Mann,oral got me moody. praying hard.
Don't let it happen,please don't.
i learnt one thing today,
but discovered another thing
which didn't help much.

gosh,have to get started on assignments.
been dwelling over too much that am not starting on anything.
thanks A for the chilling pill. :D

I can't resist the guilt that suppressed me now.
Task to inform the two couuncillors of the the investiture
just slipped off the mind. gosh.
this would be counted as the second. Urgh! Mdm Z hasn't been in
sch for 3 consecutive days,and I can't imagine the words that would leave her
mouth tmr,esp because she is treating us tmr.
i admit the mistake for my absent-mindedly :(
okay,let's see what happens next.

Electrolysis test will be postponed.
The initial feeling of relief faded as soon as panick gushed through my veins.
I have to start my revision by now. Mid year is less than a month now,

I have to stand up tall
from the fall
that pull me deep down.
I know this is for real
but those unanswered questions
that haunt
always left me puzzled
was it huge enough that hatred was all you could see?
you healed it, and make me feel so secured
memories were forsaken
because happiness was all that could be seen
nothing could ever express the feeling inside
when you were here,in the heart.
i was blinded,
and as vision uncleared,
i saw mysef as a spare in the mirror.
it wasn't me in that heart.