Friday, March 27, 2009 11:44 PM
Another competition going on tomorrow,held in National University of Singapore.
It will be a tough game, being the few neighbourhood schools.
Whether we get to break the guys power from St.Andrew or not,lies tomorrow.
We'll give the best shot, after all the sweats we've been putting in.
The Hornists, Nadhirah, Aini and I have to skip band again,for the competition.
Well,we know Mrs Chee will start her nag again,knowing the 3 seniors will not be there.
Today's sectional was okay. I was having headache,and so I didn't play much.
My breath was hot,but not as hot as yesterday. It was really tough,because I was
down with running nose while doing revision for today's O Level SPA.
Wasted a lot of tissues due to running nose,and at the same time, I know
my heart was bleeding.It wasn't easy,going to school and to assure them I'm perfectly fine.
Ever since tues,I've lost my appetite. It was made worst when I was caught with flu and sore throat,and now with blocked nose. I know I have maintain the health, for syf and tests and O level SPA going on. Perhaps all the demanding commitments of my responsibility
had prevented me from having sufficient rest,along with changes that happen.
Sometimes I wonder if everything that happened and given was totally out of pure sincerityit would be a denial,to say i'm allrightwho would want to see you goit hurts so muchbut i would rather bear the painas to see you in painwhy those things have to be settled this way,remains puzzledi thought we could make it this timebut it was only meant to be a beauty drawn on lips,not happiness from the heartif only i own the power of time,i shall say no to short-term happinessi should have look into the picturereal closeto realise how deep was your love to herthoughts of being strong this time roundsimply dissipateif i were to knowi shall not put so much hopesbecause hopes are dreams that dont come truei have to let you goeventhough my heart is saying noeverytime i close my eyesits the memories that plays in mindeverytime im aloneits you whom i wished to be a companionbut hopes are dreams that dont come trueand never willwith the absence of efforts and commitment.
if only you knew
how deep it is.
"maafkan aku,kerana mencintai dirimu"